6 weeks!

I had my first appt. today. All went well. I think I'm happy w/ my choice of going to Willamette Valley Midwives. I'll be delivering at Salem Hospital. Today we just talked a lot, then I went over to the lab & they did blood work. Fun stuff huh? LOL!

On another note...I don't think I've ever been kicked out of anything! Until now. I've recently been kicked out of Weight Watchers. All you have to do is get pregnant. Then you're out the door! LOL! It's all good. At least I'm armed with the know how to manage my weight gain during pregnancy.

Update on how I've been feeling: Hmmmmm...where do I start? Nausea at random times during the day. I wake up every night to pee, and sometimes that's even accompanied by nausea. Last night I woke up with the worst cramp right below my right shoulder blade. Oh my did it hurt. It hurt to breath. On top of that that stupid wave of nausea hit really hard. Thank goodness for my husband. He's so great! This is only the beginning. We have a long road ahead of us. Wish us luck! He He.

Have a great night all...until next time.

I made it through

Well, I made it through the Superbowl. What I mean is, great friends, good food, LOTS to drink. This is actually my second time being in this situation. I know huh? I've only known for a week and a half. Well, two weekends in a row. Last weekend I met w/ some friends at a local bar. This had been planned for quite a while, so I went, and drank water and 1 diet coke. Tonight I brought my own Root Beer. As hard as I anticipated it would be (The "really, I can't have drinks w/ my friends"), it's quite easy. How can it not be? My precious bean has a lot of growing to do. It makes it easier, but I have to admit there are times when I'm like, well, that kinda sucks! I'm going to a Blazer game on the 19th w/ a friend, no beers there. We're going to the Great Wolf Lodge in April, no water slides for me. What's camping going to be like? Uncomfortable. Oh, and no softball this year either. LOL! Oh well, it's all for the good of the order. :o) And I'm more than happy to make these small sacrifices.

5 weeks

Today I am 5 weeks! Things are going well. I have my first appt. on the 11th. I decided to go back to the Salem Women's Clinic. It's a group of Nurse Midwives. You see them all throughout your pregnancy, and who ever is on that night will be the one to deliver. I saw them with both Alexa & Brielle. Both pregnancies went well with no complications and they did great. If it's not broke don't fix it, right? Our family Dr. no longer practices OB, which is fine b/c I don't want to deliver in Stayton anyway.

I've had a little nausea here & there, but not super horrible. No real food cravings yet, but definately some food aversions. LOL!

I've tried to talk names w/ Tommy. He said the same thing this time as he did last time. "Let's wait and see what we're having first, then talk about names". Whatever! That's boring! If we have a boy he wants a Thomas Dean Kessler Jr. We'd call him T.K. I'm still not sold on it yet thought. I kind of want to give him his own name you know? Any thoughts? I thought maybe we could still do a "T" name, but I haven't come across any that I like. For girl names, I really like Emmalyn. Not sure on a middle name yet. The thing is that Emma is really popular right now, and of course, most likely Emmalyn would be shortened to Emma. Maybe. There is so much thought that goes into a name. It's their identity. I have to make sure it's a good one. The thing is, once they're here the name will fit.

And the answer is....

Well, here it is, January 28th. It's been 29 days since I started my last period. A little longer than usual. For the most part I've been feeling like my normal self. Although, I have been a little tired this week. But not so out of the ordinary tired. I decide I can't contain myself anymore and stop by the store on the way home. I had to pick up some stuff to go w/ dinner anyway. I wait for Tommy to get home, even though I really want to get this show on the road. I start cutting up the chicken (for burritos), and Tommy soaks in the tub. He pulled a muscle in his lower back. I finally go into the bathroom so we can do this thing together. I'm tired of the disappointment, but this time I'm okay. I know I'll be bummed, but also know that our life is great the way it is and we will continue forward with our girls.

I do it, I pee on the stick! Pop the lid back on, clean it up & watch as the fluid flows into the circle area. Two lines I'm pregnant, one I'm not. Immediately that first line appears..."No Way!" I laugh, I smile, I'm in total shock!!! Two lines! We're having a baby!!! Another baby!!! Our last baby!!! So many emotions. Excitement, joy, fear, uncertainty, happiness, shock! You name it, I'm feelin' it. I go back downstairs to finish cooking dinner. Tommy comes down and puts his hands on my tummy & gives me a kiss.

We've told the girls, our parents, and a few friends. Well, I've told a few friends. The girls are happy. The first thing Brielle asked was if it was going to be a boy or a girl. Then she said if it's a boy we should name it Tommy and if it's a girl we should name it Brielle. Very cute! When I was tucking her into bed tonight we talked a little more about it. She says, "Mom, will I still be me?" Awwww...of course you will sweetheart. It's going to be hard looking at this through her eyes, but I'm going to do my best to make this a joyful transition for her.

According to the online calculators my due date is October 7, and my baby is the size of a poppy seed.

I am so excited that I get to continue with my baby journey. This is not the end, but only the beginning of this wonderful miracle. I'm glad I have you all to share it with. All the wonderful (and not so wonderful) things about pregnancy. Even more, I'm glad I have a place to document it all. Now I will forever remember this day.

We've Made a Decision...I Think

So, we've really really made our decision....I think. We're pretty certain we're done trying if we don't concieve this month. Here's the thing though, I'm expecting to start ANY DAY!!! I'm getting kind of nervous now. I should know for sure by Friday (or Satruday) at the latest. So check back soon. But I'm so nervous I'm considering buying another test just so I know for sure. Since we've been trying I've really been keeping track, seems that I'm not so "regular" after all. So I'm still like...I could start tomorrow, or Thursday, or Friday, or Saturday. Kinda suprised I haven't yet, but nothing "feels" different. On the contrary I feel quite the same. Well, anyway, I'll be back on in a few days with an answer to the ultimate question.

Until next time...

I'll keep you all posted

I started this specific blog a few months ago because my husband and I were sure that we wanted to have another baby. Just one more! :o) I know it hasn't really been that long, but the more it doesn't happen the more time it gives me to really think about it. Do I really want to do this again? There are so many pros & cons. At the moment the cons our outweighing the pros. We've decided that if it doesn't happen this month (And I'm not really feelin' it you know?), that we are going to wait until June to start trying again. That is IF we decide to start trying again. If we don't, well then, Tommy will go in for that fun little office procedure :o)

I have so much on my mind but I can't get it all out! I'll keep you all posted.

No new news

Nothing new to report. Tommy & I have our moments where we're still a little back & forth. Should we or shouldn't we? With all the cons there are pros & with all the pros there are cons. I do think we're going to try again this month. If it doesn't happen then we'll probably take a break for a bit & start trying again early June. Trying to avoid having a baby in Nov., Dec., or January. Tommy's bday is in Dec. & Kendra is in January (with Christmas right in between). It would be kind of nice to have another spring baby. It's so uncomfortable to be pregnant in the summer time. But fall would be cool too. We don't have a fall bday yet. :o)

We'll see what happens. I'm just going to not worry about it. If it happens it happens. If it doesn't I just might sign up for that triathalon I've had my eye on, or rock climb Smith Rock. I've always wanted to do both of those things.